I wonder...

I wonder what it feels like to be a human.
I wonder what a human looks like.
I wonder if I am a human at all.

I feel like a worm crawling day and night,
Crushed by some careless being now and then,
Shattered and destroyed.

It's been ages since I saw a rainbow, or felt the rain,
Walking down the damp path covered with the dewy mist.
I wonder what is it like to breathe.
Have I taken a breath in ages!
I'm curious what is it like to feel alive...

When I walk the long deserted road under the burning sun,
Are there any hands that long to shelter me.
When I toil and sweat so hard day in and day out,
Is there a heart that yearns to care for me.
When I feel devoid of life,
Is there a soul that aches to bring back life to my soul.

The innocent wish of a child to get hold of that distant beautiful star in the skies above,
Is there a love as pristine as this.
I wonder if there is a heart as tender as the fragrance of a flower,
I wonder if there'll ever be...

I wonder if there is a next-life,
I know there is a promise... 
I wonder if it'll ever be,
I know it has to be...

The Golden Sculpture

A short story of intense emotions of faith, endurance, and survival. 'Her' is my protagonist here, but this relates equally well to any individual who has embraced the virtue of selflessness, but was probably too Naive to have escaped being caught in the web of life...but this naive simple girl with wide friendly loving eyes, so eager to believe appearances, Did eventually Emerge...

They say she's got a sombre look,
She says nothing,
Her eyes gazing into nothingness,
She remembers the days when she too was a chirpy young girl,
Full of life, colors and love...


And there she lay now like a withered flower,
Astounded at what the years have done to her!!!
Years of her selfless love,
But the apathy of the ones she loved,
Had emotionally hardened a heart once so tender,
With all feelings deadened, and numbed from Pain...
Pain brought upon by the ones she treasured most.


She lived in a state of self-deceit for long,
Holding onto and trusting in her love, but...
Alas! It simply wasn't meant to be.
With a deep sigh she wished,
"If only I could turn back time, And live life one more time,
I wouldn't be crying over the wasted years,
I would've been spared all the tears.
If and Only if, I could turn back time and live life one more time..."


BUT all this while, there was one thing she was achieving,
Freedom...
Freedom from her sensitivity to hurt,
And there was forming a Tougher, Stronger her,
Though unknowingly, like a blessing in disguise.


The look might be sombre,
But the quest was bounce back survival,
With a message put well across to those who 'Crushed' her...
"Don't be too shallow a soul,
Have the wisdom to
Live up to the trust of those
Who have entrusted their lives unto 'You'."


And thence emerged a 'Golden Sculpture',
Like gold tested in fire and moulded tough,
Standing tall amongst all,
Enduring, Imperishable, Indestructible.

Joie de Vivre....The Joy of Living :)

Cheerful whistles of the blowing winds,

Birds chirping in the bushes,

Clouds drifting around aimlessly,

Dancing to the melody of the water falls' song,

Flowing down from the pristine mountain snow,

Beside a bunch of multi-hued lilies,

Basking in the beauty of their glistening dew drops,

In the morning rays of the sun.

We sitting holding hands, me resting on your shoulder,

Watching in amusement our children play,

Listening to the sweet sound of their cheerful giggles,

With our hearts full of felicity,

And mellowing in the angelic glow of their innocence,

All the while paying a whole-hearted gratitude to the Divine.

One day I'll find that magical brush, to paint my world thus,

And rejoice in its glory, for ever n ever......

Amen!

The Dew of Compassion is a Tear...

The Dew of Compassion is a Tear...
Just how beautiful these words are! I cant stop wondering at the depth such a short and precise sentence can convey....


What stark difference it is to SEE someones sadness vs FEEL the pain in your own heart! Humanity without compassion simply cannot survive. Compassion in itself is a blessed feeling. But compassion accompanied by tears is even more beautiful, as it is then that its felt from the depth of the heart!!


This brings me to think that not only compassion, but any feeling when felt from deep within your heart DOES bring tears to ones eyes!!
The tears of a new mum when she first holds her new born close to her heart. The tears of joy when we see our loved ones happy. The tears of pride all parents take in their kids.  The tears of separation when children leave home for pusuing the obligations of life. The tears of faith when comforted by someone. The tears of gratitude and appreciation. The tears of serenity when loved by someone....


Just as the morning dew enhances the Beauty of nature, so do tears enhance the Depth of our feelings...

We are beautiful within, when we feel from the depth of our hearts!
Stay Beautiful n Keep Smiling! :)

A Wish...

May you blossom like a flower,
May you live like a King,
May the bloom be forever,
May a smile to all u bring.

This n much more we wish for u our love, Kairav...

Happy First Birthday Baby!!!

I look at u now my li'l baby,
And think of the day u were born a year ago,
Those tiny li'l fingers, toes and nose,
Have all so beautifully grown.

As I remember our first day together,
With u cuddled up so peacefully in my arms,
I wish I cud hold back time,
And be with u my baby as joyful, content and calm...


Happy 1st Birthday to u (19-10-10), my li'l Kairav :-)

Innocence Personified...

This one is for my li'l baby, which is the most precious gift of GOD to me. As I watch him grow up and see the divine creation that a child is, I cannot help but express my emotions. And emotions are best expressed when written in a verse form; so here it goes...

A face so fresh and lovely,
Eyes sparkling and shining bright,
A smile so pristine and honest,
Which knows no pretence or guise.

Your innocent babytalk,
And the sweet milky smell :-)
Your small li'l feet most eager to walk,
And with pride to mumpaa tell :-)

With you my life's an eternal bliss,
I've known nothing as pure as u my child...
True happiness to you I always wish,
May GOD Almighty be your guide...


GOD Bless u my child!!